Im losing it.. The assignments are coming at me in all directions and I cannot concentrate on anything for the life of me. My mind would rather wonder to familiar, relaxing places. I mean I am not even focusing on any thoughts in particular, its just that everything crossing my mind is definitely not homework related. I have tried sitting down and getting stuff done, obviously its not working. What is wrong with me? Im almost doubting if I can make it through college. How am I supposed to stay motivated for four years straight if I cannot motivate myself for a half hour so I can finish the simplest of assignments? What is there to motivate me? What is the point of getting motivated? Why don't I just stay in my happy place and block out the world? Why is my happy place not happy? Seriously, my "happiness" is not true happiness, it is numbness. It is the feeling that I cannot feel anything; thus, allowing my mind to wander and not give a hoot where it goes because no matter what pops up, Im numb to it.
This picture tends to make me feel better... :)
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